I’m looking out of my bedroom window, still in my PJs, because hey, it’s my heavy flow day. I see the local women forging ahead through the deluge. They have to go and work on the land despite this torrential rain. My boda boda, our local motor guy whom we can basically ask for everything, has some shopping to do for us – I don’t have a car at the moment and honestly, that shopping isn’t that urgent. But I told him to please not do all of this in the rain, it can wait, honestly! I couldn’t possibly feel guilty, but for him it is his work, his income to maintain his family.
And me, I’m here in my house, thinking of the next steps for developing my online yoga business, while pondering about the world we are living in right now; the personal decisions we have to make for our boys.

My cat has decided to go for her long sleep on the sofa; she doesn’t like to get wet outside. But it’s her wild play area for daily adventures and food hunting. Later, it will be possible again…I know she realizes that.

What will all be possible for later? For the local women on the land? For our boys?

I watched a short video this morning about a guy saying not to waste your money as parents on particular university studies, because AI will have completely taken over those jobs that our teens would be studying for.

How depressing… looking at the rain, hearing the rain. Where is the sun and his bright light?

Is it really depressing?

Should we dive into this gap of consciousness and develop our boys differently? But they have their teenage brains active and their own will…

I’m thinking of sending them out with the locals to shepherd a herd of cows and goats.
I’m thinking of them to learn local crafts.
I’m thinking of (us) learning other ways of cultivating food together with the locals.
Could we get involved in protecting the national parks? Good luck, the Chinese have already gotten involved…

I’m looking at the difference between the locals and us, and I’m not sure which is the better situation, prospect?

Ow yes, I’m very present in the now!
I taste the porridge still in my mouth; I hear the clattering of the heavy rain; I smell my cat’s desire for adventure; I feel my heartbeat and slow breath; my menstruation very present in my lower belly.

I see the images and colours of the electro-magnetic field and my/our energetic connection. Through my yoga I know I am strongly on my way to rise up and live at another level of consciousness within the daily challenges.

And I am here to support you in that while we are all pondering the ow so many challenges that the world is presenting us with.

And perhaps… this is it.

Not the certainty we were taught to build towards, but the capacity to stay present inside the not-knowing.

To feel the rain without rushing for the sun.
To let our boys grow not only into a world we understand, but into one we are still learning how to meet ourselves.

Maybe there isn’t a “better” place to stand: not here, not there, not them, not us.
But only the invitation to stay awake in the life that is unfolding right in front of us.

Breathing. Sensing. Choosing. Again and again.

And trusting that from this place, something truer than fear can quietly begin to lead.